We live with the scars we choose…..

I recently worked up the guts to go to a tattoo shop and get some tattoos I’ve always wanted. Yes, my bubbly, little, Elle Woods looking self finally worked up the nerve at 30 years old. Not sure how I made it through 4 years of art school without getting something inked on my body, maybe because I spent ALL of my money on art supplies or fabric but not sure. Was this was my quarter year crisis or just the whole “rebranding” theme that I am currently in? Either way, I set my mind to do something and I did it.

I was pleasantly surprised with the whole process and couldn’t wait to get more!┬áThis naturally, led me to do some research on what my next tattoo would be. Choosing what you place on your body forever, or until you save up to get it removed, is kind of a big deal. One tattoo that kept popping up in my searches was a simple quote that says “we live with the scars we choose.” This quote seems like it was meant for me. Obviously, a tattoo can be like a scar that we choose to live with but it got me thinking. Do we live with the scars we choose….emotionally?

This makes me think about unrequited love and the people who have hurt me emotionally and have ‘scarred’ me for life. Maybe it is really me choosing to live with these constant reminders of former loves and not allowing myself to heal and move on. I know time can heal wounds and that it is best to keep living your life. For a long time, I tried to do that and just when I would forget about the pain, something would happen to remind me of what I missed.

I know we have more control over our lives than we think. I also know that no one can make you feel inferior without your consent and maybe it applies to emotional baggage as well. Maybe, we carry around these scars with us because we are afraid of forgetting what made us feel good.

As I keep moving on and reimagining my life, I am beginning to think that it’s time to deal with the facts and move on without really caring what happens. I refuse to carry these scars with me and will continue to choose the scars I live with. Which will most definitely be another tattoo and maybe this inspirational quote….who knows.